A little of my many many imperfections .

instead of complaining , or ranting ,
or whatever boring stuff i seem to tell you guys ,
i'll talk about myself for once ,
yet another boring stuff , i know .

okayh , lets see .

I'm spontaneous . I know , that somehow sounds like I'm bragging or something , but really , I'm not. Being spontaneous is not a good thing . Its really really bad . Its like , acting on impulse . Without thinking . For one thing , its embarassing . Speaking your mind out and people not understanding a thing . And you have to like , "oh nevermind" and all that . For another , its seriously insensitive . You said something too honest and that person is seriously hurt . Then you tried changing it into a joke , which makes even more insensitive . All you can do in the end is smile sheepishly and say sorry . Get the point when I say its not a good thing ?

I am a bad liar . I know , yet again , that sounds like its a good thing right ? But I'm afraid its not honey . Sometimes being a good liar is helpful in my oh-so-very dramatic life . No , acting and lying are 2 very different things . Acting , I can do . Because acting , you know what you need to do . Lying , on the other hand , you need to act on a whim . Without warning . And of course , I can't keep my mind straight under pressure . Let alone trying to lie under pressure . Sorry , but its too much .

I talk too much and too loud . oh god , this is a very bad habit of mine . And I don't even notice it . Not until someone tells me . Which is seriously embarassing . Like some people I'm talking to , would say , can you please not shout ? Its seriously embarassing since you didn't mean to sound like you're shouting . The talking too much thing , it annoys people a lot even in msn . Imagine that . I'm quiet at first i guess , but when i start i'll never stop .

I'm a shopaholic . No , I don't mean that in a 'I'm a fashion addict , I just NEED to buy those stuff because I'm a shopaholic." No , I meant it like , I can't have money entrusted to me. They'll be gone very very soon . I can assure you . I can spend like , RM 30 a day . In school . I seriously don't remember how I can spend that much , I can barely remember what i buy . God , I'd probably have money problems when I'm working in the future .

I have really low self-esteem . I have stage frights ALL of the time I've been on stage . I mean , who misses the last line of the Rukun Negara when reading it on stage in front of oh say , 100-200 people ? After that I've never been on stage except in a group , like footloose and choir.